Tuesday, March 13, 2012
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I'm feeling so repulsive.
I feel ugly and fat.
I guess its time to spent some nights with ana again.
Its not that I'm having a number in my brain or anything, its just my ugw again.
Not that far away, easy to be done.
I'm not in the mood to meet with anyone. I just wanna lay in bed or sit on my writing desk and draw and listen to good music, forgetting time and space.
But life is not as easy as that, apart from school I guess my bf wants to see me. My friends wanna meet too. Right now I wish for some peace.
I don't feel right in my body, not even the weight but I hate that feeling of beeing a girl and looking like one...I've dressed way too girly in the last few days I don't feel like myself anymore. Not even close.
Wrong, so wrong in many ways, thats how I feel.
disgusting and repulsive, hideous.
Sacrifice is giving up something good for something better
I feel ugly and fat.
I guess its time to spent some nights with ana again.
Its not that I'm having a number in my brain or anything, its just my ugw again.
Not that far away, easy to be done.
I'm not in the mood to meet with anyone. I just wanna lay in bed or sit on my writing desk and draw and listen to good music, forgetting time and space.
But life is not as easy as that, apart from school I guess my bf wants to see me. My friends wanna meet too. Right now I wish for some peace.
I don't feel right in my body, not even the weight but I hate that feeling of beeing a girl and looking like one...I've dressed way too girly in the last few days I don't feel like myself anymore. Not even close.
Wrong, so wrong in many ways, thats how I feel.
disgusting and repulsive, hideous.
Sacrifice is giving up something good for something better



