I'm waiting for this test to end
For this test to end
Hi, I'm losing myself in you, high
I'm losing

Bayou rolling insane
I've dived in it
In wide, in you
You say all
Heartmill
You will

I don't know how to post on here anymore, since everything I post will be analysed and used against me. I mean If I speak honest and tell my feelings, my mind, my heart I only recieve hate and anger against me and I don't know how to deal with this. I thought my blog was some kind of safe place where I could speak free and unbound but since I've caught up with a few conversations dealing with my blog entrys I've lost courage somehow. I mean, how can I be myself if everything I say is used against me in the end ? Thats like a freaking deathtrap.
I feel so lost amongst my thoughts and I cannot speak them because its "wrong" or it "hurts" other people. I'm too sensitive for such shit.

I'm waiting for this test to end
For this test to end
Hi, I'm losing myself in you, high
I'm losing

Bayou rolling insane
I've dived in it
In wide, in you
You say all
Heartmill
You will

I don't know how to post on here anymore, since everything I post will be analysed and used against me. I mean If I speak honest and tell my feelings, my mind, my heart I only recieve hate and anger against me and I don't know how to deal with this. I thought my blog was some kind of safe place where I could speak free and unbound but since I've caught up with a few conversations dealing with my blog entrys I've lost courage somehow. I mean, how can I be myself if everything I say is used against me in the end ? Thats like a freaking deathtrap.
I feel so lost amongst my thoughts and I cannot speak them because its "wrong" or it "hurts" other people. I'm too sensitive for such shit.