Saturday, June 30, 2012
Friday, June 22, 2012
♛|56
And in the end I've lost it all.
Like, those last couple of days so many bad things happened I don't know if I can keep it up any longer.
Losing friends, my home, my mind.
And in the end I'm asking myself why I still care. Its not like I was first choice eventually. I'm always second best. I got used to this.
Still I'm always shocked when I realize it.
"Oh I'm always sitting on the fence and I don't know what to do"
and thats why I'm ALWAYS !!! second best, right ? Because you can't decide.
Sure. Liar.
Tell me one thing I was the first choice to do.
Like something major.
It all revolves about your husband.
food. flat. time spending. money. animals.
FUCK YOU AND YOUR LIES.
I'm SO sick of this.
I'm a fucking mess and you're not noticing it, you're just triggering me.
Like, those last couple of days so many bad things happened I don't know if I can keep it up any longer.
Losing friends, my home, my mind.
And in the end I'm asking myself why I still care. Its not like I was first choice eventually. I'm always second best. I got used to this.
Still I'm always shocked when I realize it.
"Oh I'm always sitting on the fence and I don't know what to do"
and thats why I'm ALWAYS !!! second best, right ? Because you can't decide.
Sure. Liar.
Tell me one thing I was the first choice to do.
Like something major.
It all revolves about your husband.
food. flat. time spending. money. animals.
FUCK YOU AND YOUR LIES.
I'm SO sick of this.
I'm a fucking mess and you're not noticing it, you're just triggering me.
Monday, June 18, 2012
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When I was darkness at that time
震えてる唇
部屋の片隅で I cry
もがけばもがくほど 突き刺さるこの傷
破られた約束 hurt me
震えてる唇
部屋の片隅で I cry
もがけばもがくほど 突き刺さるこの傷
破られた約束 hurt me