Tuesday, July 24, 2012
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I'm in such a horrible condition.
This isn't only my head anymore. I'm feeling sick. My immune sytsem is down to a pretty low level and I can't do anything about it.
I'm just so tortured my these horrible thoughts in my mind. And even if there's nothing on I still can't sleep because I'm feeling so freakin lonely. Yesterday night I watched the sun rise and it was such a scary moment because the moment I realized I didn't get any sleep again is just unbearable. But I can't help it though.
All I do is lay in bed and watch TV til sun rises because otherwise I'll go mad because of all the horrific things-
Its such a vicious circle.
Yet everyone around me complaining about having not enough sleep makes me jealous because I'm just like. . .yeah . . .poor you then.
Ugh that makes me feel so horrible because I'm such a egoist.
whutever.
My doctor won't help me with that and I have to wait til we move to get a new doctor.
This isn't only my head anymore. I'm feeling sick. My immune sytsem is down to a pretty low level and I can't do anything about it.
I'm just so tortured my these horrible thoughts in my mind. And even if there's nothing on I still can't sleep because I'm feeling so freakin lonely. Yesterday night I watched the sun rise and it was such a scary moment because the moment I realized I didn't get any sleep again is just unbearable. But I can't help it though.
All I do is lay in bed and watch TV til sun rises because otherwise I'll go mad because of all the horrific things-
Its such a vicious circle.
Yet everyone around me complaining about having not enough sleep makes me jealous because I'm just like. . .yeah . . .poor you then.
Ugh that makes me feel so horrible because I'm such a egoist.
whutever.
My doctor won't help me with that and I have to wait til we move to get a new doctor.
Labels: insomnia